It's Like That Boy George Song

I think karma is coming back to bite me in the ass.

Since recently spending time with both Afro Boy and the Whitest Boy Alive, there seems to be a cycle that's going on. This past spring/early summer I had seen them both plationically while I was dating the Redneck and W.B.A would periodically pop in and out proclaiming his feelings towards me while I would disappear until he got over them. I was already in a committed relationship - albiet a completely fucked up one - but I was really taken aback by his fondness.

Flash-forward to things now. W.B.A is at it again, and the more time I've spent with him the more I can't really picture things moving toward a serious manner. He's a nice guy, but the type who would let me go all New York on his ass and wouldn't stand up for himself. So while I'm emotionally distancing myself from him, I'm becoming more and more fond of Afro Boy, who seems to be emotionally distancing himself from me. It's like a cycle of confusion, distrust, and people not wanting to be honest with eachother. I fully recognize now how W.B.A must have felt a few months ago, where I would randomly appear, accept his compliments and advances, then freak out and back off completely.

It's a weird situation. The guy who wants me to reciprocate, I want nothing romantic to do with while the guy who I want to reciprocate has "I don't know what I want" written on his forehead. I'm sure that once Afro Boy figures out what he wants (even if he does now, he has an ADD way of showing it) I'll be free from the college world and moving on, and I hate looking back on situations and wondering what could've happened if someone had just had the balls to open their mouth.